Meat & Taters

I've been living the amuse-bouche part of life for a good amount of time by now. In other words, I do believe I've made my impression on the world.... and I could stand to round out the grande event with a Main Course.

I've been naming my fear "Research" as to make it sound less like I'm a chicken-shit or a perfectionist. Are they one in the same? I'll say, after intensive observation and......well, research. It's certainly time to use everything I've been slowly learning about living a more intentional life to actively live intentionally. My sponsor this morning called this apex (as I feel it to be for me) the Meat and Potatoes of the way of life I've chosen. Hence the Dinner Theme.

I recently watched Vanderpump Villa season 2, and again as I had watching season 1, I got great amusement from the word for the Tiny Plates acting as the appetizer for the appetizer and/or palate cleansers - amuse-bouche. In French, the term "bouche" means "mouth", translated to English. To amuse the mouth.

I've spent a lot of time amusing the mouth - essentially scratching the surface - of existence. I've avoided commitment, even in places or to things that warm my heart, to avoid being a disappointment. Really, to avoid being disappointed as well. I detest the emotion. It feels like the inevitable outcome of Pressure to Conform, and if there is one thing I'm actually terrible at, it's acquiescing. Trust me, protest is far from the socially acceptable response to the pressures of conformity. It's manipulated to be perceived as resistance of the Pressure Cookers by the Acquiesced. Not so. Reformation is 100% not a bad thing when a certain system is not working for the greater good.

The big confusion currently in society is What Is Good? Who Is Good? Is anything that is Good also convenient, is a question I have to ask myself regularly, and then furthermore, I wonder if THAT PARTICULAR CONCERN actually matters in the grander scheme of Universal Oneness. Good and Right and Bad and Wrong are 4 corners of living in a box when we are talking about existing symbiotically with our Fellow Humans. In my humble opinion. I have been living in this box lately, clinging to the sideline that is "Good and Right", therefore inevitable squared into the limiting mindset that there is only Good and Bad and Right and Wrong. I'll tell you from experience that the Gut (where the greater power than just myself that I call God resides) is not a square. Not even a cube. Containing the Greater Power Within into such a shape for form will probably give you Digestion Issues. So will eating ONLY THE AMUSE-BOUCHE and skipping the Meat&Taters....

So for my next course...... well, you're with me, looking at it (if you've stumble over) and hopefully watching a plant pop a new leaf is extremely satisfying for you, 'cause that's what you're looking at as these "pages" develop. I promise to make it obvious when I decide that I "need a niche" and hone in on a theme. In the mean time, it's ok to keep saying to yourself "I have no idea what anything she writes means." Yeah, me either....